Lost

We all have this thing called emotions and feelings that will hit us like a tidal wave
We are highly affected by issues that does not concern us and we wonder why
Call me sensitive or even better, a woman
But how often do we not act that age and start taking things seriously
For someone who is inexperienced where do i get the courage to take charge
My confidence has been shot down
And my self - esteem has been buried deep enough not to recovered
No its not about having trust issues, it is the lack of having one with a significant other
Simple can be complicated once im involved

Romance

Do i really have to travel all over the world to know if The One really exists me
Because i am so ready to close this chapter in my life
I am getting tired of cooking up images of my future with some stranger
These fantasies and romanticization should not happen
Not at this age where time is slowly slipping out my grip
I know i cannot control my fate
But my destiny would be different if i will it

Reality in 2015

Do we ever feel guilt by thinking that justice got served

Lets not involve our race, religion or gender

Humanity and society plays a part too

They manage to implant all these thoughts and ideas

We have forgotten that the greatest pleasure in life does not come in the form of a gadget

We do have countries and people still living in medieval times

They do not have the latest technology or access to the world wide web

Its us who are doing the damage

We condone and we support but its never enough 

Things have been going on for years but with the help of social media and whatnot

We are getting information and forming false beliefs no thanks to spin doctors

Why are we harming ourselves by spreading hate

Once the blaming game starts and it will never end 

It will still come down to "he did that first" or "they said it first"

Yes i am hypocrite because i cant be taking sides

It is wrong yet it somehow affects me

Bringing religion into the picture is another story

People do tend to forget about the "Real" history

All you've learnt so far are political history

It was no thanks to <insert country> for dividing diversified nations/countries

Creating political boundaries is straining a lot of laws and rules 

And you wonder why some are still at war

It wasn't just one country but a handful

A new year to sad beginnings 

 

New and old

A couple of days have passed and nothing has changed.
I've said this over and over again.
Its a new year, a new me.
But how often do we fall into the same pattern.
A habit that could be both good or bad.
Something we can never shake off.
I have a problem with committing myself to a project or even crafts.
But this year has to change, it has to be different.
I can see that my life will amount to nothing in the end.
Writing would be one that i will try to do regularly.
Then again all the uncertainties of "what ifs" will appear.
No more of that nonsense.
I'm not getting any younger nor am i getting any wiser.  
I'm at a crossroad with myself.